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    It's been a while since I've really typed out a update, I've actually been working on some stuff lately (portrait of RDJ for a friend, taking photos for my media arts class, writing) and I just thought I should tell you what's up with all the photo uploads.
Recently I've been in a really great mood. I haven't been experiencing much anxiety and even depression is toning down a bit. Thanks to that I feel SUPER GREAT and all of my creative juices are just pumping. So anyways, I dropped fine arts again this year because I found it frustrated me because I was being FORCED to create something and hand it in on a specific date, and that isn't really how I work. I need to be inspired to work and being pushed to do stuff was not helping. As to writing, I'm trying to create something meaningful that people can take a lesson away from, I'm getting there. Plus, I have a little green book to fill before July (with non book related stuff) so I probably won't actually get started planning until probably September.

SPEAKING OF SEPTEMBER I graduate next year whoa that happened fast. I'm going away to become an ultrasound technician and it's going to be a lot of work. I can do it, I have amazing people cheering me on and I have some goals set for my future as well which require me to have a well paying job. I can't believe I graduate next year and then I move out and I'm gone forever... well, unless I'm broke and it's a choice between being a hobo and moving home with my parents.

Media arts is going fantastically. I really think Mr. Beatty is a great teacher who helps us reach our full potential by pushing us to break out of our comfort zone. I find that he's very calm about due dates and I can work on things as I want, it's not like it HAS to be in on an exact date, if you miss a day or two he doesn't dock you marks. I also think much better in that class because it's more of a creative component versus a logical component and I really love it. So be prepared for Media Arts stuffs to be uploaded because I have so much I just have to upload!!

So as to being happy, I an seriously feeling like I'm getting better... I think that my mind is mellowing out (I say as I sit at home writing this because of a panic attack.) I haven't had as many anxiety attacks and I find myself able to focus better. I'm starting to patch up the damage done in the past and it's a little easier to transition into new things, places, and relationships. I still find myself nervous in public, like in big crowds, but I feel a lot better at school. (Especially after I dropped physics)

But I cannot take all the credit for my happiness because Steven has made me insanely happy. So if he's reading this, thank you for everything, you're the most amazing guy I know, you're my best friend and my boyfriend. I couldn't ask for anyone better in my life even from so far away... Thank you Sheepie!!

There's my update, now you know what's going on.

See ya!

~Silver